I have written of my experiences with “full preterism” and the shipwreck of my faith it caused totally verifying Paul’s warning to Timothy.
Others have had the same experience. My featured article this week regards a sister who did as well.
My journey left me agitated, spiritually exhausted, weak, confused, and spiritually sick. This doctrine churned inside of me, tearing at the cords of my faith, demanding ever-so-sweetly, as cultic sirens always do, that I completely abandon the foundation of my faith, and open up my heart and mind to another. It demanded that I prostitute my faith, and give up the future Hope and Promise that is my first Love.
In 1999 I wrote this:
Well, ideas have consequences, and as I struggled with this idea, I went through the blackest moments in my Christian faith.
And recently recounted my experiences thusly:
I don’t remember what caused my search to flare up into full gear, but it eventually did, and I consumed great quantities of Hymenæan poison and briefly swallowed their heresy hook, line, and sinker, and God paid me a great mercy ~ He struck me with the immediate consequence of this faith-wrecking cancer, my faith was wrecked. In my soul and spirit I KNEW what the denial of the historic essentials meant, and KNEW this was demonic to the core. I sank into a deep, dark, clinical depression during which I honestly tried to apostasize and reject Christ….At that point, I didn’t know how to refute the heresy, and if the heresy was true, Christian faith was not. It was a self-imploding sham.
Dear ones - be forewarned. God has given me a tremendous privilege to be able to be used to warned the brethren. All the ultra-personal attacks are worth if just ONE if pulled from the pit. And more than one has. Thank you Lord Jesus.